I've got a theory, that it's a demon...

A dancing demon, no wait something isn't right there.

I do however have a theory nonetheless. A theory about the world. A theory about our past. A theory about our race. A theory based on the oldest stories from the oldest people, and lots and lots of evidence.

Let's start with the Sumerians. The Sumerian civilization came from nowhere (archeologically speaking.) Having no real predecessor. Nor do they speak of civilizations before them. In fact they believed that their civilization was brought here by the gods wholly, the Annunaki. The Sumerian civilization is the creator of the oldest known form of writing. Interesting. I wonder what else they invented? Let's take a look: the wheel, the wheeled vehicle, complex mathematics including geometry and algebra, Astronomy (they're constellations are still used to this day; orion, the crab, the bull...etc.), Military formations (such as infantry, cavalry, archers.), City states, Laws and court systems, A civic mail system, School systems, and agricultural feats used today (cultivating Mouflon and Aurochs in a grand mass production scale. They have since been bred into sheep and cattle.) That's a lot of stuff for a civilization to create from nowhere... did i mention they rose to power in 5300bc? They also used things like fireplaces, and chimney's and wooden tables with legs. They mass produced generic pottery. Even pottery with spouts at the bottom you could pull a cork out of to pour a cup. They had copper plates.

So apparently humans (archeologically speaking) walked out of the forest's and desserts and made Sumeria, a civilization that is responsible for things we even use to this day. Oh and they also wrote the first creation story and spiritual beliefs. In a nut shell? They believed they were created to work for the gods. Specifically mining gold and other raw ores and materials. Their gods? All have connection to or are depicted as reptiles or dragons. Odd. Later they gods realized that their creation (humans) were too much to handle and, having gotten what they wanted, left us to our accord.

Another quick fact. Their creation story involves a demi-god battling a god who gives birth to dragons and fish-people and serpents, and who is described as a serpent like. This aspect of the story is called a "Chaoskampf." A Chaoskampf is an element, usually in epic stories, or creation myths where a person, usually a demi-god or god, has to fight a form of chaos. This is almost always depicted as a serpent or dragon. Almost always. And this element is present in almost every single epic, creation myth, and several legends. It is so prevalent that this one aspect of a story has it's own word to describe it. Zuess did it, Hercules did it, it was apparently all the rave to champion a dragon or serpent back then.

Two more quick fact about Sumeria. They have pictures of Dinosaurs on their walls. And they talked about the flood event before Noah ever lived.

Enter Genetics. The human race has reptilian DNA in it. Not a lot, but a few genetic markers that are only found in reptiles. Odd. For being a "Mammal" we are fairly hairless, compared to the rest of our family. The Sumerians believe we were created out of red clay. The clay was made red from the blood of a dead god. We were made from a gods blood? Interesting.

My first theory. The human being was genetically altered to be physically weaker than we would have been, though far more intelligent. This genetic alteration was done in several phases and trials until they got it right. I believe this is why there are several "versions" of human before us i.e. Neanderthals and Homo-Erectus. With each incarnate of man we became less physical and more intelligent. Relying less on physical prowess and more on learning how to survive and hunt with tools. This also explains why we havn't found the missing link between us and apes yet. Because there is no missing link. We were created from genetic material. We didn't evolve from apes, we were made from their parts. Adam and Eve didn't have self awareness until they ate from the fruit that the serpent helped them get? Creation stories like this are not passed down for solely religious doctrine. The Ute's believe that at one time they lived under the world, with a race of reptile men. They warred with these reptile men until they were driven out of their underworld into the ground above. They exited the underworld at Zions. Lest us not forget also of the chimera's. Through all the old world are tales of deformed creatures that are mixed between a man and an animal. Fantasy? Maybe. Genetic manipulation? Possible. An interesting note: Species cannot mate outside their own species. This is due to chromosome pairs, and the amount of chromosomes. Though they have recently discovered that Homo-sapiens (us) interbred with Neanderthals. That means they were genetically matched to us. There is also an old account in russia, of some hunters coming upon a female bigfoot. They captured her and held her as a pet of sorts until her death. They also had sex with her, and she gave birth to several children. Who's line was always known for having incredible strength and resilience to the cold, until their line died out earlier this century. This could be easily studied by geneticists if they only cared enough to go dig the bodies up.

So what happened to non-engineered humans? Google search Sasquatch, Bigfoot, Yeti, Skunk Ape, Yahwe. A bipedel creature that is in-tuned with nature, fairly intelligent, huge, covered in hair, incredibly strong, and can talk in conversation with it's own. Eight to ten feet tall, and taller? Humans can grow that big, with a certain genetic disorder. Covered in hair? Humans can have that, with a certain genetic disorder.

That is my theory on the Human species as a race. Coming soon. The human experience of the soul.

3 + 3 + 3

I have woken up at 3:33 every night since my last post. Three three times equals nine. Nine pillars. It's time to transform this space.

3:33

I sat up, coming out of my sleep. I looked at my phone; it was 3:33am. I had only been sleeping for three and a half hours. The house was quiet. I got up to go look in the fridge as I was starving. No food. I lay down on the couch and closed my eyes for a minute. When I opened them there were three people sitting on the coffee table, watching me. They said they were waiting for me to write, as they wanted to see it. I told them I had stuff to do first. I went to the store and got the materials to make a cake. When I got home it was 4;33. I sat down at my computer and began to write. They watched me as I revised some chapters. I finished them all. They asked me who the ring was for, and I realized I had a ring inside me that was made in the shape of a camel. I knew it had been for Leila originally and told them so. They said not to worry that the ring was changing shape already and soon would be ready for someone else. I thanked them as they went to watch other things and I got ready for work.

The sky is falling.

We sat in the front room talking, the five of us. As it got later me and Josh had to go to catch our plane. Dalling and Nadya and Meisha all drove with us to the airport to see us off. As we got on the plane we found out that we had been sat in different sections of the plane. We took off and as we were flying I got to know some of the people on the plane. They were all excited to be going to the place we were going. Everyone had different reasons. Josh was going for business as he was wearing his work suit and had his laptop and suitcase with him. But we were planning on visiting a ruin after he was done with his work.

We landed and had a layover. As people got off the plane to stretch me and josh moved our stuff so we could sit next to each other. The pilot of the plane came and told me I needed a hard case luggage as he was worried about me keeping my artifacts in such a soft set of luggage. I moved the artifacts to the hardcase that the pilot gave me and put it under my seat. As we prepared to take off Josh got up to use the restroom. The plane started moving and the pilot said over the loudspeaker that we were following another plane out because there was huge winds taking place. We all strapped in and the plane veered toward the ground, i looked out the window and saw a large farm structure with a restaurant and bar attached to it. The plane pulled up sharply and to the right. the wind changed directions and pushed the plane in the direction we were heading. The plane spun out of control and begin free falling in a spin toward the ground. The front of the plane ripped off and people were pulled out of the plane being thrown away. I held on as we spun. The plane hit the ground hard, knocking my chair off from being bolted to the ground. It slid until it finally ran into a large garage, the force from the impact stopping the plane. I got up and opened the side hatch jumping down from the door to the ground. There was a restaurant near and I ran to it. There was no one inside but a sign saying "I'm at the bar."

I ran to the bar and inside screaming "Call 911, call 911!" A lady walked up to me and asked what happened and I told her "A plane just crashed into your barn!" She freaked out and ran to a phone. I ran back to the plane. The front of the plane sat next to the part I was in. The pilots were hanging out of the cockpit windows decapitated with blood pouring out of them onto the ground. A survivor had climbed up and was checking inside to see if anyone was alive. He said no one was. I climbed back into the plane and started helping people out, checking for who was alive. As we moved closer to the front of what was left of the plane I saw someone open the bathroom door slowly and then close it while shaking their heads. I immediately went cold and remembered josh had been in the bathroom. I moved forward swallowing hard as a heavy weight began to grow in the pit of my stomach. The man shook his head and moved to the side to let me look. I breathed in heavily and slowly reached forward pulling the door open. Josh lay in the room with his eyes and mouth laying open in shock. He was lifeless.

I shut the door and as the realization that Josh had died in the crash hit me, I cried out as loud as my lungs allowed me. I cried hard screaming "No." I thought about having to tell Meisha and dallin and nadya that he was gone tore at my heart. The other passengers that lived helped me get out of the plane where paramedics and police were now helping everyone. I fell to my knees screaming in pain at the loss of one of my few great friends.

I woke up not sure if I had been screaming into my pillow, or if it had just been in my dream.

Black wings

Everyone left to go to school. I had pretended to be sick. My friend came over and we went into the backyard. I wanted to show him something I had learned. I spread my arms out and jumped in the air while moving my arms in a rotation. Black energy burst from my skin and covered me forming wings around my arms. I rose high in the air with two flaps. The energy retreated though and I fell to the ground. I tried it over and over though never getting off more than two or three flaps before losing control and falling back down to the ground. When the energy came I could feel myself actually transforming my body, and I knew it was my energy, like a black flame. I tried over and over but I just didn't know the mechanics of flying. And I realized even though I had the tools to fly, I didn't know how too. It wasn't in my instincts to fly like that.

Soon everyone got home from school and work and they watched me try, and they kept telling me I couldn't do it and they thought I was silly and dumb. And the more they told me I couldn't the less effective I was, until I couldn't even get the black flame energy to come.

When everyone had gone inside and i was left alone wondering what had happened, I saw a lone black bird fly above me.

I woke up.

The Cats

I was sitting on the ground in a carpeted room. Steve and Tara where sitting on the couch, and Sarah was sitting on floor across the room next to the couch. There were three cats. The crawled all over me, rubbing their fur on me, trying to get me to pet them. Tara and Steve kept laughing at how much attention they wanted from me, and how they had never wanted this much attention before. I asked where the cat's came from and they said they didn't know. Sarah said she knew but she couldn't say because the cats would get mad. One of the cats crawled up and pushed it's head against my cheek and whispered into my ear. It thanked me for petting it and showing it attention. I nodded and rubbed my head against it's head. Tara and Steve were telling me about all the trouble the cats had caused in the past and how mischivious they had been. Them and Sarah all laughed about it and I just shook my head at how much mischief the cats had caused. One of the cats ran away for a moment. The other two lay down in my lap so I couldn't move. Sarah said the other one had run to get me a gift. When it returned it had a mouse hanging from it's mouth. I took the mouse in my hand and I realized it was a flute, shaped like a mouse. I thanked the cats and then woke up.

Anok and Eroneke

Tell me a story...

Anok's people lived in a village not far from a large mountain. On this mountain lived a giant made of rock and lava. It's name was Eroneke. Eroneke was so large that he cast a long shadow over the village of Anok's people. The people were so greatful to live in the shadow of Eroneke, for he shaded them from the heat of the sun. So grateful were they that they gave him offerings of food and riches. Eroneke took these offerings gladly, and ate them up. After a long time Eroneke had eaten so many offerings that he got larger and larger. Until his shadow cast further and wider. Soon his shadow blocked the sun from the crops and the farms. Anok's people grew to resent Eroneke. Their crops would not grow. Their food deminished. The people of the village stopped giving offerings to Eroneke. Soon Eroneke's hunger was so great he began to grab villiagers that walked to close to his mountain, eating them, to sustain his hunger. The people cried out, calling him the monster Eroneke. Eroneke cried as the people who once beloved him, now called him monster, and his tears were of rock and lava. His tears fell from the mountain and destroyed homes and farms. Anok's people cried out for him to end their suffering and slay the monster Eroneke that had caused them so much grief. Anok heard his people crying out and went to Eroneke's mountain and climbed it. Eroneke did not see Anok climbing for he was crying, and when Anok called out Eroneke's name, he was surprised
"Why does the great monster Eroneke cry" Anok asked
"Because the people that are beloved to me call me monster." Eroneke said.
"They call you monster because you ruin their crops, and eat anyone that comes near."
"My shadow ruins their crops. And I eat those that near because my hunger is so great since my offerings have stopped."Eroneke said.
"The offerings stopped because your shadow blocked the sun from our crops."Anok pointed out.
"My shadow grew because out of love the people gave me offerings after offering." Eroneke said.
"I have come to slay you, the people have cried out and I have heard them." Anok said holding up a sword.
"If you kill me great Anok my carcass will remain, blocking out the sun still."

With Eroneke's words Anok knew he killing the giant would not solve the problems. Anok went back to the village and told them this. Still they cried out for Anok to find a solution. For five hundred and twelve days Anok thought of the problem. On the five hundredth and thirteenth day Anok instructed the village to build a rope. One that could withstand the heat of lava, and was strong enough to move a mountain. Having nothing to make rope of the poeple of the village learned to grow special crops that grew without the sun's warmth. They grew these plants for one harvest. When the rope was done they cried out for Anok to rid them of Eroneke. Once more he climbed the mountain.
"You have come to move me with the rope you made that won't burn, and that can move a mountain." Eroneke said as Anok reached him at the peak of the mountain.
Anok did not stop climbing, and continued to climb, even climbing up to Eroneke's head. When he stood upon Eroneke's head Anok spun the rope in his hand, and with all his might he cast the rope up. When the rope was caught on the sun Anok began to walk down the other side of the mountain. As the rope grew tight the sun began to move in the sky. Eroneke's shadow moved until it covered half of the village but not the crops. The people cried out their thanks for Anok and began to plant crops once more.

Anok tied the rope to a tree. A tree only he knew where it was. And knowing the people of the village could grow their crops once more, and that Eroneke would be giving tribute once more, Anok continued forward, away from the tree and the village. Though for a long time through the rest of his journey he could still see the mountain with Eroneke sitting at the top. And when he would look to this mountain, Eroneke was always watching over him from his high throne.

Gaia give me strength (dream)

I was in a forest. Sitting in a clearing, with a teacher in front of me. The teacher’s name was Gaia. She was giving me instructions on how to pull energy from the earth. I was in a trial. I had to stand before a water element and prove myself in the use of the energy of the world. I stood when she was done instructing and turned and walked towards the sound of water. Through the tree’s there was a waterfall that turned into a river. A large man stood there in the water. He had a large beard, his hair blue, his skin scaly. I pulled energy from the earth below me. Nothing happened. I tried again, nothing happened. He laughed at me and told me to go away because I failed. I turned to leave, upset and disappointed. I heard him laughing. I turned and pulled energy from the sky above me and walked back towards him. My body glowed brightly with a green energy. He stopped laughing and nodded to me. I turned around and Gaia was behind me. She asked me if I passes, and understood. I said “Tell them I have passed. Yes I understand.” She nodded and left.

I went to the base of a cliff where my dad was waiting for me. I nodded to him as I approached him. He smiled and hugged me when I was near him. He said he was going to show me a new way to get home now that I had passed. He glowed green for a moment and he waved his hand. A path in the cliff revealed itself going up. The path was covered in what looked like ham pineapple and cheese. He started climbing it. I put my hand against it and my hand sunk in easily and held. I realized this was definitely not ham pineapple and cheese, but that’s what it looked like. I began to climb easily. I saw a woman climbing down taking another broken off path then the one we were. She nodded as she passed us but did not say anything. When we reached the top we were not far from my house. Dad hugged me again and said he had to get to work, and left. I walked the rest of the way home thinking about my trial.

As I approached my house my roommates ran out, a woman and a man and a child. They were all brother and sister. They were screaming for me. I ran to meet them. They said that it was the day the curse would take effect and they were scared and didn’t know what to do. I told them to settle down, and we would have to handle it. They wouldn’t let me get help because they didn’t want anyone to know. We went into the house and locked all the doors and windows and barricaded them and boarded them up from the inside. By the time we were done the sun was setting and they were getting more nervous. I told them we should make dinner to ease the tension. We started making dinner, and were joking and forgot about the time. It started raining outside. We were sitting down at the table when we heard some footsteps on the porch. And something dragging on the wood of the porch. Then the lights went out. I went to a window and looked through a crack in a board. I could see the entrance to their family crypt was open and swaying in the wind. I knew that their dad has been risen as a demon. He had come back to kill them and me.

We heard someone call out, it was a little girl. The oldest brother ran to a window and looked out. He screamed in terror because it was his little sister. I mentioned I never knew they had another sister. The oldest sister said that she had died when she was little. The brother started trying to pry the boards off the door. I ran and grabbed him by the shoulders and pulled him back. As I did a large blade plunged through the door and the opening he had made, barely missing him. The girl looked through, I saw demon in her eyes as they locked on me. She stared at me. I knew then that they were after me, not my roommates. I kicked my foot out planting my heel in her face, she screamed and backed away. We could hear lighting and see shadows from outside flash against the walls. I told them we needed to get them to safety. I took them to the cellar that could only be accessed from inside the house. It was under the table, under a rug. I told them to lock it from the inside, and showed them how. I grabbed a sword from the cellar, as it was where I hid my weapons. The oldest brother refused to hide and said he would fight with me. I could not convince him to stay. He grabbed a weapon too. We waited until we heard them lock it from the inside.

We pulled the boards off a window from an upstairs bedroom, and crawled out onto the roof. We looked down around the yard and saw the father. He was standing still looking up at us, resting his hands on the hilt of a scythe. He had a smile on his face. I looked to my left and saw the small girl crawling towards me. She moved like a lizard, slithering on her limbs rapidly. She leapt into the air and spun, swinging a scythe at me. I blocked it with my sword but it unbalanced me, knocking me over. I rolled off the roof landing on the ground. I heard a thump and saw the brother had jumped down with me. I quickly stood up we looked around. We couldn’t see either of the demons. I turned to talk to the brother and something sprayed in my face. I blinked and saw the back of his neck and head, and saw a curved blade sticking out of the neck. I looked over his shoulder and saw the little girl with a wide grin on her face. She pulled the scythe out and then spun slicing his stomach open. His intestines fell from his body, spilling into the dirt. I felt remorse flood over me, for letting him come with me. The father walked out of the shadows now and they both began to approach me. The father ran towards me. I held up my hand and pulled energy from gaia from above. I felt the energy enter me like lightening, and I directed it out of my hand. The energy hit the father blowing his right arm off and a portion of his torso. The girl stopped surprised. The father looked down at his wound and then back at me. He backed away slowly. The girl rushed towards me. I pulled Gaia’s energy into my hand and formed it into sold rock. I struck out hitting her face as her scythe entered my stomach. He head stopped separating from her body as it moved forward. The father looked surprised and stunned. I reached down and pulled the scythe out of me. The father backed in to the shadows and then turned and ran.

I walked over to the brother. He was holding his neck with his hand. Gasping for air staring at the sky. I dug dirt and mud from the ground and placed it in where his intestines had come from, and over his the hole in his neck. I pulled Gaia’s energy into me until I glowed bright green and then I placed my hands over his wounds. The mud and dirt changed, forming into organs and skin. It spread out and moved until his wounds were healed, leaving two red scars. He breathed in deeply. I looked behind me and saw the demon in the fathers body watching me. He turned and headed towards the town. I helped the brother up and we went inside and then down to the cellar.

(At this point we I woke up. Got up and realized I had fallen asleep in my clothes with my light on. I changed and turned my light off and went back to bed. )

Me and my roommates were running down a street towards a very tall large building. There were the possessed running after us. I told them to run ahead of me. I turned and pulled energy into me and called fire to a line in front of me. The possessed stopped before the fire. I turned and ran after the family. We entered the building. There were ten or twelve other people in the lobby area. We screamed at them we had to hide. They asked us where we came from and I told them because they had the lights on it had attracted lots of the possessed and we had come to warn them. They realized they had made a huge mistake and we began running up the escalators to the stairwell. We barricaded the door and began moving up the stairs. We could hear the door being slammed as we moved up quickly. We got to the top floor and exited the stairwell. We barricaded it and turned all the lights off. We found a large room that could only be accessed one way, but had another exit if we had to leave. We all sat down and rested. We talked and got to know eachother. We talked about how the possession had spread around the world. About the apocalypse. I told them how I had fought against the first possessed. We spent several days there, going out during the day to find food within the large building. Then on the fourth night we heard the possessed break into the floor we were on. We began to move, try and find a way out. But we heard them enter from the other side of the floor as well. They had surrounded us. We ran splitting up, trying to hide. Two girls followed me. We went to an electronics store that was on the floor. We hid behind aisle in the store. A possessed came in, and slowly walked up and down the aisle next to us. When he turned around the corner I pulled him to the ground and covered his mouth. I pulled fiercely and ripped his head off. The girl next to me vomited. I grabbed their hands and moved quickly ducking behind aisles. We found an employee’s only door and found it went to a large corridor system that ran behind all the stores. We found a couple more of our people there and they followed me. We found a small stair system that went up to the top level of another store, but I saw that it was near a walkway that lead to small cordoned off room. I climbed up and jumped over to the walkway. And then helped the rest of them do the same. As we got in the room, we heard the possessed enter the corridor. We shut the door . There was six of us. One of the girls that had followed me kissed me and told me she loved me. I cracked the door open and peaked out to see the possessed all standing silently in on the stairs. They began to slowly move as one. Lifting each other up to the walkway, I closed the door and we started to barricade it. The possessed soon started pounding on the door. I was overwhelmed with despair. I didn’t know what to do. Then I remembered the ham pineapple and cheese. I pulled Gaia into me until I glowed green, and I looked for another path. Two doors presented themselves. One said freeze, the other said fall. When the doors opened it revealed to elevators that hung outside the building, suspended over nothing. Everyone cried as the door began to break open. We made our choices, I stepped into the fall elevator. The two girls went with me, and one old man. The other two went into the freeze elevator. As we got in the door broke and possessed flooded into the room. The grabbed the doors to the elevator before they could close. I began kicking them until the doors could close all the way. The elevators were see through, like glass and we could see the two in the other one freezing. Slowly we watched them freeze to death. We hung in the air, the girls crying. In the bottom of our elevator was a large whole. With long chords hanging down. We sat in there for days. The possessed banged against the door constantly. On the final night, we new we had to try and escape or we would die. We were resolved to climb down the rope and then the next person would climb down and hang from the first persons feet. I was going to go down first and hold everyone’s weight. As we prepared I heard a large boom and the elevator shook. We saw a helicopter fly by in a circle and I saw that it was my friend in it. He had been working on a way to free the possessed. The helicopter was shooting smoke canisters into the building. He had saved us! We all screamed and cried and I kissed the woman that loved me fiercely. When they rescued us from the elevator we rejoiced together. All the live humans were ecstatic that we had finally beaten the possessed. My friend told me everything that had happened and how he found the cure. But it didn’t work on dogs, so we had to put all the possessed dogs down. I found my roommates they were still alive. We all hugged and cried together.

And then I woke up.

An encounter

I prepared for bed; turned my computer off, changed into shorts. I left my room closing my door behind me so no light peaked through the hallway into Dallin and Nadya's room. I realized all the lights were off in the apartment; Dallin and Nadya must have turned them all off when i was in my room. I waited for my eyes to adjust and then felt my way slowly to the kitchen. The kitchen was darker then the front room, so I reached out to feel for the table while staring ahead. Then I realized i couldn't see out the window. We never close the blinds and I can always see into the backyard when the lights are out. And my vision blurred as my eyes tried to focus and realized something was standing between me and the window.

I had a moment of panic flood over me as I realized I was not alone in the kitchen. I felt it then like all the sudden it's pressence was in my reality. I could sense it and feel it's life. It was cautious. It was trying to stand still and not be seen. It was as paniced as I was. It's caution turned to agitation when I did not move. I felt it willing me to leave and not see or remember it. I took a step back wanting to run from that which i couldn't see clearly. I wanted to not accept that something like this could exist in my kitchen at four in the morning. But I stopped. I moved forward slowly as it watched me. I willed it to move because I was thirsty and I needed a glass of water. It moved to the side and I saw the window and the starlight coming in. I reached over and turned the kitchen light on and there was nothing in the room. I searched the fridge but I had nothing to drink in it. I went back to my room and turned the light off and crawled into bed.

I quickly fell asleep.

I heard a chime and reached over and picked up my phone. There had been no call, and no alarm went off. It was 5:12. My bed shook. I looked up and saw five people standing around my bed. I layed my head back down and closed my eyes. I saw them clearer with my eyes closed. I opened my eyes again and they were still there. A man with shaggy shoulder length hair climbed on my bed. I felt the bed move under me as he did so. I layed back down closing my eyes tighter, I could still see him. He pushed his forehead against mine. I felt pressure but no physical contact. He asked me in a whisper If I could see him. I didn't asnwer. He pressed harder asked me again. I nodded. He grabbed my arms and squeezed. I felt pressure, like air tightening, but no physical contact. He aske me again and I opened my eyes and thought very loudly "Yes. I see all of you." They all moved back and looked at eachother. The man on my bed floated up and back to land in a standing position at the foot of my bed. Then they all stopped and looked at me and at the same time reached out for me. I felt the air in my room grow tight and cold. My eyes rolled back and the next thing I remember is waking up.

My Natal Chart

If are interested in the inner workings of me, take a look at my Natal Chart. It's surprisingly introspective.


Seth Kidd
July 1, 1983 7:30am
Sandy, Utah

THE INNER YOU
In this section of the reading we'll look at the Sun, the Moon, and each of the planets. As each body is introduced, a brief paragraph will tell the area of life and living most affected by the planet. These planet placements begin to paint the astrological picture of the inner you.

The SUN
The chart reading will begin with the Sun as the primary focus of astrology. The Sun's position in the zodiac is very important, and most agree it deserves first consideration. It's the core of the individual; the overriding nature and will. This is the influence that describes the "you" that is trying to be in this lifetime. This is your "awake" side, your consciousness and outer-directed individuality. Thus, the Sun is the most important single indicator, fueling the total personality. The nature of your Sun sign is your true colors that you display to world day in and day out.

Cancer
The Sun is in this fourth sign of the zodiac from 22 June until 22 July each year. The symbol for Cancer is the Crab, with its protective shell. People with this Sun sign are sometimes also called "Moon Children," because the Moon is the ruler of the sign.
In Cancer the Sun is receptive and moody. You are a very sensitive person who is easily influenced by your environment. You are likely to be exceedingly protective of your feelings, as well as the feelings of those to whom you are close. Emotions are strong in your nature. You approach life with many feelings and a strong nurturing tendency. Your moods are varied and changeable. They are synchronized to the Moon, flowing in and out like the tide. You are acutely aware of the atmosphere of feelings surrounding you. You're skeptical and distrustful of people. It's not what they say, but simply the way they say it and the way you interpret their meaning.
You need to tell your deepest thoughts. When those around you are not receptive, you can become quite difficult to reach. The "crabby" part of Cancer shows up once in awhile, as well. When these moods are in control of your behavior, you can snap someone's head off for no reason at all. People you live around have to learn that you are not really angry with them. This is just the way Moon children are sometimes. By nature you are quiet and somewhat reserved, frequently retreating or putting up a protective barrier when you feel in any way threatened.
You are attuned to the past. You tend to cling to reminders and memorabilia of your family and of earlier times. Many Cancers are attracted to collecting antiques. You may be one of those people who collects just about everything. It's hard for you to part with something when there may be a chance need some rainy day, no matter how remote that chance may be. Cancers are the original "pack-rats."
You place much importance on the home and family. Your family or your "family of friends" is the center of your life. They provide you your sense of security and belonging. Your role in this environment is the source of your self-esteem and often overshadow your sense of individuality. It's hard to break away from your early upbringing and depart from the family traditions you have experienced. Cancer is the sign of motherhood. In both sexes, it produces a parenting instinct that is caring, protective, and indulging. Even unmarried Cancers adopt friends, co-workers, and neighbors in an extended family situation.
Hardworking and dedicated, you make an excellent employee. You are loyal and respect authority. This makes you supportive and protective of the boss and rarely questioning company policy. You do find it very difficult to handle change and disruption. If you are the boss, you like your employees to be dedicated as you are. Unfortunately, sometimes you may surround yourself with "yes men" who simply reinforce your decisions. You don't take chances or risk sweeping change.
Money is very important to you. Not for what it will buy or for the freedom it provides, but for the sense of security it provides. No matter what else is to be said of Cancer, security and having the protective shell in place, is overriding.

The MOON
The Moon's position in your chart is almost as important as the Sun, but the influence is different. The moon is your emotional life. It relates to immediate emotional responses. It's those reactions instilled by conditioning; the memory and learned habit patterns. The influence of the Moon is more subtle, for it relates to personality beneath the surface; your feelings and your subconscious self. It shows how you react to those around you based on the sum of your conditioned viewpoint and unguarded self-projection. Often, the Moon's place in the chart shows a considerably different side of the nature, a side fostered by emotions, upbringing, and habit patterns that have developed over time

Pisces
A Pisces Moon indicates that you are especially sensitive, perceptive and perhaps even dreamy. You are very responsive to the depths of human experience, having an understanding and affection for nearly all people.
With the Moon in Pisces, you can be overly optimistic, sometimes looking at the world through "rose colored glasses." Emotionally naive, you continually overlook other people's shortcomings and deficiencies. You are essentially so romantic that you may rarely see life as it really is. You are tremendously unselfish, trusting and open-handed. Sometimes you can be a little too generous, especially with your boundless sympathy. This is a very passive position, and if you are not careful, others may attempt to take advantage of you. When they do, you are always so easily hurt; and you may spend much to much time feeling sorry for yourself.
You are neither analytical nor critical, but maybe a little psychic. Most astrologers agree that this is the most psychic Moon of all. Highly sensitive, you connect with others on an unconscious, emotional level. You actually feel what they feel. Thus, you have a most sympathetic and compassionate nature, and these fine instincts can be invaluable to you in the everyday world. In many situations, you can be too giving and overly-idealistic. You may have difficulty seeing your people in a clear way, preferring instead to live within a fantasy that you have created.
You expect much of yourself, even perfection, and sometimes you may get down on yourself because of this.

The SUN and the MOON sign COMBINED

Cancer/Pisces
The combination of your Sun sign and your Moon sign produces a highly fluid nature with much emotional depth. You store a constant flow of impressions and your instincts and hunches are usually very accurate. Your polarity reveals that your personality blends harmoniously with your individuality, but also accentuates your emotional nature, making you mentally receptive and impressionable. You have a very peaceable and amenable personality, and is agreeable and rarely on the wrong side of an argument; agreeable, friendly and diplomatic. Not a fighter, you are so affable and pleasant that is sometimes hard to tell where you stand or how long you are going to stand there. This is not to say you don't have ideas, but you keep them to yourself rather than produce conflict and turmoil. Your practical or political sense is so clear and your ability to apply tact to most situations usually assure you success in most endeavors, but you may have to develop your self-confidence and be a little more willing to act on your hunches and highly accurate intuition. You're suspicious of others, and you may keep many secrets locked inside. In fact, you are self-protective, a bit defensive, and some would say too cautious, a good deal of the time; but because of this, very able to protect yourself from designing people. Never easy to fool, you have good business sense and the ability to drive a good bargain. You can be popular in a large broad way with groups of people, though in personal contacts you are likely to remain a little suspicious and overly careful.

The Planet MERCURY
Mercury's sign describes your thought processes and projection. It's closely associated with its natural home, the third house of learning and communication. Mercury is the indication of your general intellectual orientation, and the expression of your thoughts and ideas. In other words, it describes the way you think and communicate, and the way you get information. Mercury also shows how you like to travel through life. Are you a speedster who takes the most direct route, or do you amble and get side-tracked sometimes?

Gemini
Gemini is the natural home for Mercury, and the placement produces pure logical reasoning of the highest order. This Mercury denotes a lightning quick thinker. Your concern is with fact and unbiased understanding, rather than personal preference. Communication is easy, rapid, accurate and often eloquent. You are an interesting and incessant conversationalist. Mercury is at its quickest and best when it resides in Gemini.
If given proper training, you excel in mathematics as well as in language. You are very logical, and your mind moves very quickly. You love logic, a fact making you an excellent teacher or reporter.
When engaged in arguments, you may miss a basic premise, but you are clever enough to win anyway. The opponent is convinced by your rational remarks. You have a great variety of interests, and your mind may flit from one idea to the next, never digging in very deeply. You have an intense curiosity leading you to want to know a little about nearly everything. This makes you a very interesting person, but rarely an expert in any particular field.
The down side of Mercury in Gemini is the sensitive nervous system often noted. It's hard for you to shut out external stimulation of any sort. You may find yourself being forced to deal with too much activity and too many impressions from time to time. If you allow yourself to be subjected to too much stress and too many demands for an extended period, you can become frazzled and subject to breakdown. The obvious signs of this problem are irritability and mental confusion. The root cause of this is simply spreading yourself too thin. Getting away from it all generally provides a quick cure.

The Planet VENUS
The planet Venus has an influence centered on the expression of emotions in personal relationships. It is especially associated with love, marriage, and the ability to attract others. Its placement in the chart shows how you express yourself in romantic relationships and in marriage. In mythology, Venus is the goddess of love, and in astrology that link is the same. In the various signs the nature of how you deal with people is modified and clarified by Venus. Venus is often in the same sign as the Sun since it can never be more than 45° from the Sun. When it is in the same sign, there is a consistence in behavior that extends to dealing with people and in romantic situations. When Venus is in a different sign, the character of the Sun is often overcome by the romantic tug of Venus.

Leo
If Venus is in Leo in your chart it suggests a behavior that is theatrical, with a good deal of personal and social pride. Venus in Leo is warm-hearted and fun-loving, a natural showman with a need for self-expression. There is an innate need to be in the spotlight and center of attention.
You have much physical and emotional magnetism that attracts romantic interest easily. You thrive on these attractions and what they mean to your ego. Romance helps you maintain your high opinion of yourself. You are happiest when you are in love and when bestowing your gift of romance on a lucky admirer.
Glamour, excitement and charm mark your courtship endeavors. You are lavish with your attentions, presents, and with yourself. The Venus Leo in love is sincere and whole-hearted. You are one of the most romantic and ardent of lovers. This is an outgoing and affectionate position for Venus, as you truly love life and romantic drama.
You can be very loyal to those whom you think worthy of your affections, but you expect strong affections in return. Despite all the fun and show, you are an extremely stable and loyal partner. You are basically a one-love person because your pride is so wrapped up in your relationships. If there is a break in a serious relationship, it will most likely be a very hard and bitter one.
While you are innately faithful in love, you are not one to discourage or ignore other admirers. You love to be noticed and admired. You enjoy attracting romantic interest, though you have no interest or desire to follow through on these idle flirtations

The Planet MARS
The sign in which Mars resides in the birth chart shows the expression of energies. Mars suggests the projection of self. This planet is linked to the sex drive, so its placement shows the approach to matters of pursuing the opposite gender. The key element of Mars is assertiveness, and its placement in the different signs qualifies and quantifies this trait. Because of this, Mars has much to do with the projection of personality. The Mars position suggests whether your energies are going to be largely physical (fire signs Aries, Leo, Sagittarius), material (earth signs Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn), mental (air signs Gemini, Libra, Aquarius), or emotional (water signs Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces).

Cancer
In Cancer, the Mars energies are largely of the emotional sort. While physical endeavors and practical affairs may find the energy to function satisfactorily, mental energies are apt to struggle.
This placement often causes actions to be tinged with a very sensitive flavor. You express your energies in a very emotional fashion. Much of the assertiveness of Mars is turned toward the domestic scene. There is a cautious side and much defensiveness in your nature. This placement of Mars is not very physical or competitive, and not inclined to any sort of combat, physical or mental. Mars in Cancer has a very positive side, as it often shows a quiet, peaceful nature. While being very protective of your "turf," you are never too assertive or demanding. In your work, you rarely compromise your views, and prefer working independently and in control of affairs. You are ambitious, and a hard worker. Since you are not, by nature, an aggressive person, you pursue your desires in a round-about or start-stop manner. You frequently change your direction and your goals. You strive for security, and a good deal of your energy goes into this effort. In this regard, you are fiercely protective of family, co-workers, organization, or to whatever you devote yourself. You may be known for the strength of your patriotism and loyalty.
Because of these strong moods and feelings, you are a very sexual and sensual person. You are also very loyal in relationships, and certainly demanding of the same from your partner. Infidelity threatens your sense of security and is therefore unacceptable.
There is an intensity of these emotions that often results in moodiness and discord in your domestic relations. Your digestion is strongly affected by your moods and feelings. With energies tied to feelings, you are prone to become very angry inside. If this anger is suppressed it can result in ulcers and stomach upset.

The Planet JUPITER
Jupiter takes about twelve years to move through the twelve signs of the zodiac. It is the largest planet in our solar system, and in mythology, Jupiter was the king of the gods. The dominate theme and its size may account for the theory of expansion associated with the planet. The nature of Jupiter in a horoscope relates to the expansion of horizons or growth in higher understanding. The sign placement of Jupiter helps define ones higher level of thinking. Since Jupiter stays in the same sign for about one year, many people born while Jupiter is in a given sign will have similar views on ideas and beliefs of that period. Often this placement gives clues as to your views of the weightier issues of life such as religion, philosophy and social issues of the day. Jupiter also rules optimism in living, prosperity, and growth, both mentally and physically.

Sagittarius
Jupiter is in Sagittarius in your chart. This is the natural sign for Jupiter and it generally creates a carefree, outgoing, optimistic individual. You enjoy making life better for others. You are an outdoors type, fond of sports and travel. You have a serious interest in matters pertaining to philosophy, religion or significant social issues. Your approach to life and how you conduct your affairs may be regulated by your strong convictions. You are likely to want to win over as many converts as you can to your way of thinking or beliefs. You can become very dogmatic in your views and good at selling them. You will prosper in life, but you spend freely, so you may never be wealthy.

The Planet SATURN
Saturn is associated with restrictions and obstacles. These frustrating or inhibiting aspects of life are expressed through the sign that Saturn occupies in your chart. Since the planet remains in each sign for two and a half years, these are traits you may share with most of your contemporaries. The traits described become more pronounced when Capricorn is on the Ascendant (Ascendants or Rising signs will be discussed in part 2) or when Saturn is in the first house of the chart. Saturn is the natural ruler of the tenth house of the professional life, honor, fame, and success in the eyes of the world at large. Thus, the placement of Saturn denotes the approach to climbing the ladder of success, or the difficulties encountered on that ladder.

Libra
Saturn in Libra gives a sense of justice and fairness. This placement give refined approach to intellectual pursuits. Diplomacy and tact come out owing to this Saturn position, and you can work well with people because of a natural trait to cooperate rather than compete. Since Libra is associated with relationships, Saturn here may delay marriage and place obstacles in the path of romantic affairs. A successful marriage will require much patience and hard work. You may have an inferiority complex in forming relationships. Feeling unlovable, you may run off prospective partners. This same fear of rejection can cause problems in your dealing with the outside world in general. Avoid a tendency to shut yourself off socially from people.

THE OUTER YOU
In this part of the reading you will read about the twelve houses of the horoscope. They describe the twelve areas of life in which everyone operates on a daily basis. You will read how you are likely to react and handle each of these areas of life according to your unique personality and the specific traits described as the Inner you.
The horoscope is divided into twelve sections or houses. Each house relates to a specific part of the life. This reading will consider each house by discussing the zodiac sign influencing the sector. It also will discuss the influence emerging when one or more planets occupy the houses, and the sensitive aspects formed between these bodies.
In constructing an accurate horoscope the time of day must be known to establish properly the Rising sign or Ascendant. The Rising sign is the sign of the zodiac positioned on the eastern horizon (on the cusp of the first house) at birth. The correctness of this point is critical in constructing and interpreting the chart. The Ascendant and the zodiac sign on each of the 12 house details the outer you.

THE FIRST HOUSE . . . . YOUR PERSONALITY
This first house is the house of the self as it deals with the physical person. The Rising sign/Ascendant is a filter lens through which the Sun, the Moon, and the planets come in to play. The Ascendant distinguishes the different variables in disposition, temperament and even physical appearances in persons born on the same day, but at different times. Your Ascendant denotes the way you look at life. Often, it's the impression of "you" perceived by those around you.

Cancer
The Moon rules the sign Cancer, and therefore is called the ruler of your horoscope. When the Moon is so predominate in a chart, it produces a personality that is sensitive and a little on the timid side. You like to feel out a situation before projecting yourself into it. The Moon is the indicator of emotions, the feelings, and the sensitivities. It is also closely related to the mothering instinct. You are very protective of those who are close to you, as you are protective of yourself. If you don't have a family around you to mother, you'll probably exhibit these characteristics with your friends.
Being extremely receptive, you may be somewhat psychic or at least extremely sensitive to your environment. Your moods are very strong and changeable, much like the tides. You are ruled by your strong emotions and intuition. You can change moods in a significant way, two or three times in any day. You respond to life through feelings and emotions, instead of from thinking. You can become easily upset, but never stay that way for any length of time. When you are in control of your emotions, you can be the most understanding person one could hope to find. You are compassionate and receptive, in touch with those around you. When you are not in control, you can be miserable; the victim of your moods and sensitivities.
The symbol of Cancer is the crab. Like the crab, a Cancer Ascendant often chooses an indirect approach to meeting objectives. There is a tendency to retreat when directly confronted, but with a tenacity of purpose that is unsurpassed. The Crab is always vulnerable, but seeks shelter in a rock-hard shell. Like the crab, you can protect yourself with a shell-like personality that can make you nearly unapproachable when you feel threatened.
You identify strongly with your family, and a solid "home base" is essential to your well-being. There is a very strong connection with background and tradition, leaning toward a sense of heritage and warm, homey trappings. You can become very attached and sentimental about people, places, and belongings. You are particularly affected by memorabilia that reminds you of good times and special people.
You pick up the feelings of those around you. This makes you especially sensitive to slights, or just about any other type of negative energy. It's important for you to avoid people with problems because you are so receptive that you pick up their problems as your own.

THE SECOND HOUSE . . . MATERIAL VALUES AND SECURITY
The second house relates to personal possessions and general prosperity. It deals with your sense of values and how you view your security. Factors associated with the second house may show how you acquire and how you spend your material resources. The house may also relate how important these assets are in your life.

Leo
This is the sign of the zodiac that is ruled by the Sun. The Sun denotes your self-esteem, so your financial condition may have a close association with your self-esteem. Your earning capacity may have a lot to do with your sense of self-worth. The Leo drive for self-expression strives to accumulate material security. You tend to make finances your major objective to insure your security. You are smart in financial affairs because of knowing what the public wants, and you know how to profit from this knowledge. Doing well financially is especially important to you for the benefits it provides your offspring, and because you have this natural concern for your long term security.

Second House
Venus here suggests that this planet is closely associated with your security and your material ideas. You have a love of wealth and the personal adornments it affords, and you probably have much good fortune when it comes to obtaining many of the better things in life. You are very much interested in making a lot of money, if only for the social status it provides. The placement denotes talent in business and a definite ability to make money. The Venus association with artistic endeavors suggests that if you are artistically inclined, you may stand a good chance of making money from your art. Sometimes it also suggests an extravagance that may be offset by the material advantages that you obtain.

Venus square Jupiter
A square aspect formed between Venus and Jupiter makes self-indulgence likely, and produces some carelessness in matters associated with Venus. Too much is taken for granted, and you may lack an appreciation of the true value of things. You can be very extravagant in both your affections and your finances, finding it difficult to manage both. You are likely to resent being forced to do anything you would prefer not to do. You are suspicious of the motives of others. You feel that any antagonistic feelings between you and someone else are largely the result of the other person not understanding you. You may have a problem keeping your weight down because of self-indulgent habits.

Venus sextile Saturn
The sextile formed between Venus and Saturn gives concrete expression to any artistic talents you may possess. You are loyal to your friends and loved ones. Unless other factors in your chart suggest otherwise, you are likely to have a very enduring marriage. Grace, refinement, and good breeding are usually apparent with this aspect. You're polite but somewhat formal in social conduct. In romantic connections you're cautious and reserved. Because of this, some may view you as shy and withdrawn. You only make romantic overtures to those who mean something to you, and those who have convinced you the feeling is mutual. You readily accept public and private responsibilities, and you are very reliable. You have good judgment in business, and this aspect shows the potential for success when you avoid leaving anything to chance.

Venus trine Neptune
The trine formed between Venus and Neptune denotes a highly romantic nature. Artistic talent is very often present, but the will to express this talent may be slow to appear. The ability to handle practical affairs must depend on other factors in the chart. You are apt to have unusual romances or meet your partner under such strange circumstances that you may feel that it may even have been predestined. You are kind and sympathetic toward those in need, but your way of giving help may be impractical. You're too tolerant of people, but you don't think so. You are an idealist likely to have deep spiritual beliefs.

Venus sextile Pluto
The sextile formed between Venus and Pluto gives strong feelings and perceptions. This aspect aids any artistic talents you may possess by producing dynamic and original creativity. The key to your success in relationships is your deep understanding of people and their motivations. You are easily attracted by physical appearances and a person's sex appeal. Yet just as quickly, you are turned off by any signs of superficiality.

THE THIRD HOUSE . . . LEARNING AND COMMUNICATION
The third house of the chart concerns your thought processes and how you relate to others in your formative years; the early environment and early relationships. It deals with subjects such as writing, news, communication, speech and learning to deal with the world. Accordingly, it is associated with early education.

Virgo
Virgo on the cusp of the third house suggests a strong emphasis on writing and communication. It highlights the need to talk, discuss, read and learn. This sign suggests an inferiority complex centered around communication skills, especially in the early years. Virgo produces a nervous mind, and a tendency to brood over the past. Also, there can be apprehension about the future. So you worry a lot. You can be sentimentally attached to people, and still you'll be critical of their ideas and try to improve their way of thinking. You can be overly critical of brothers, sisters or neighbors. You can be fussy about inessentials that matter little. As you grow, you are precise in speech, writing, and forming ideas that usually go into minute detail. Your plans are practical and
THE FOURTH HOUSE . . . HOME AND BASE OF OPERATION
The fourth house of the chart is your base of operation; in a material sense, your home. In a more spiritual sense, this house relates to your soul. Psychological roots, including family or racial traditions, are among the affairs of this house. It is associated with real estate and property, or your home and your security.

Libra
Libra influencing this house suggests that you are very much in need of roots. You want to own your home and possessions, free and clear, and you need this for your emotional security. You appear very peaceful and quiet, but until you are well anchored in life, you will experience much inner restlessness and vacillation. Your home is the balancing point in your life. You need to have your abode attractively decorated, and filled with congenial people.

Fourth House
Saturn positioned in the fourth house relates to the base of operation; the home environment. This placement denotes heavy responsibilities incurred though family affairs and the home. In this environment, you may have the sole task of disciplinarian or supporting factor. You have an ingrained dislike for change, perhaps prompted by a real fear of the unknown and the untested. You have a strong concern for your security, and you take conservative actions to insure that you are provided for later on. You cling to the past and to your roots. Yet you will probably be happier away from your place of birth.

Fourth House
Pluto in the fourth house results in a degree of tension in the home environment, and a dominating attitude with family members. Power struggles can develop in this environment. There is a strong and deep-seated attachment to the home or the land. This can sometimes extend to a serious interest in earth sciences or professions.

THE FIFTH HOUSE . . . RECREATION AND CREATIVENESS
The fifth house is the field of self-expression. This area shows effort put forth to distinguish yourself from others. It deals with your romantic affairs, procreation, your offspring, and with artistic endeavors, hobbies, books written, and other personal achievements. The fifth house also relates to those things in life that we enjoy doing; how you are entertained. Finally, relationships with children are described by this sector of the chart.

Scorpio
The influence of Scorpio on the cusp of the fifth house yields a natural need for emotional attachments and romantic encounter. This need may bring you into contact with a variety of dynamic and charismatic people. The nature of Pluto, the ruler of this sector of your chart, can produce some major upsets resulting from these attachments. You are not very good at picking people who are good for you, often getting hung up on a need to transform the other person. In romantic affairs you become intensely emotional, jealous, and possessive. Clandestine or somehow unusual love affairs are not uncommon because of the secretive Scorpio influence. You are concerned for your children, almost to an extreme degree. As they mature, it's hard for you to release them.

Fifth House
Jupiter in the fifth house shows that the planet plays an important part shaping an ability to proceed through life very much on the strength of your character. You are apt to live a privileged life, which you are able to accept as your rightful due. You have much good fortune, and you enjoy yourself as a result of this planet, known as the greater benefic. While life is essentially an enjoyment for you, Jupiter is also a planet with a higher purpose, and you are apt to feel an inner drive for personal expression and the need to make a contribution to society. Jupiter in the fifth house often produces success in teaching, politics, the ministry, or in the entertainment business. Often, this placement denotes a rather large family or a significant association with children.

Fifth House
Uranus in the fifth house exerts its erratic behavior in house of love affairs, personal creativity, offspring, and dealings with children. The placement shows you are a highly inventive and creative person. Yet you may need to learn self-control, and perhaps gain a better sense of self-knowledge. You can be reckless and foolhardy. Urges toward speculation can be costly. You have strong urges to be free and independent. Your offspring possess many of these same characteristics. They can cause you much trouble unless you channel their energies in the right direction at an early age. Romantic involvement occurs in sudden and unconventional ways, and breaks are also sudden and unexpected.

THE SIXTH HOUSE . . . WORK, DUTY AND SERVICE
The sixth house is the field of service. Subjects here revolve around work and health matters. Duties, practical responsibilities, and mundane tasks are affairs of this house, as are relations with employees and coworkers. Your degree of interest in health and fitness matters is likely to be shown here.

Sagittarius
The influence of Sagittarius on the sixth house brings a tone of optimism and help to the workplace. You have a natural buoyancy regarding your job and your work environment. Your work is inspirational to you, and you need to believe in what you are doing. If you get bored you may eat or drink too much. Jupiter, the ruler of Sagittarius, indicates a tendency to overwork and to over-extend yourself in your work. Yet you do need to be challenged, kept on your toes, to be fulfilled in your work. You may not have enough energy, and because of this you need to obtain a healthy measure of sleep to maintain your vitality. You are well adjusted in your work, and your health may be good, simply because you are such a positive thinker in this aspect of your life. Jupiter is sometimes the planet of overdoing, and in the sixth house. This can suggest a tendency to eat or drink too much, or to have an extravagant taste in food and drink. This can lead to health problems in the area of digestion. Finally, Jupiter also shows a need to get close to nature and you probably should find some time to walk in the woods and keep in touch with the great outdoors.

Sixth House
Neptune in the sixth house suggests a strong association with the work environment, the need to provide assistance to others, and health. You may have a spiritual compulsion to help. This placement denotes glamorous illusions relating to the work attitude. You have difficulty concentrating on mundane jobs and attending to details. You have trouble getting organized and holding to practical objectives. Routine work can be a problem for you. You may have an abnormal sensitivity to drugs, alcohol, and medications and you should be cautious in this regard.

THE SEVENTH HOUSE . . . RELATIONSHIPS AND MARRIAGE
The seventh house is the field of relationships. This house, opposite the first (matters of the self), relates to the other people with whom you enter close association. It is your social consciousness and cooperation, or the lack of it. Contracts, including the marriage, and other relationships, adversary encounters and law suits, are housed here. Partnerships in business and in life are seventh house matters.

Capricorn
Capricorn influence on the seventh house denotes a certain shyness and reserve, and a definite caution and restraint in forming partnerships. Marriage may be for status and security as much as for love. You are not one to be quick or impulsive in such matters. There is a tendency for you to feel restricted by the duties of wedlock or of any partnership. Capricorn is ruled by Saturn, the planet of restrictions and responsibility. Capricorn relates to restrictions and you are likely to be required to carry more than your share of the responsibilities. You attract partners that want or need your nurturing support. The Saturn type as a mate is the parent figure, who is there to give a solid base, be supportive and responsible. Yours is likely to be a relationship that is very nurturing to both you and your partner. You are mutually supportive to each other, and to others with whom you come in contact.

THE EIGHTH HOUSE . . . NEEDS, SECRETS, JOINT RESOURCES
The eighth house is the field of joint resources. This house deals with possessions that are not earned by you, but obtained through relationships or inheritance. It also involves funds belonging to others such as taxes, corporate money, insurance, and the stock market. It addresses matters of generation, regeneration, research and investigation. The eighth house relates to interests in the mysteries of life.

Aquarius
The Aquarius influence on the eighth house denotes one who is independent and original in ideas regarding life's mysteries and universal laws. You have a surprisingly strong interest in the spiritual side of life. You are likely to have very unorthodox views on sex, birth control and abortion, normally being surprisingly liberal in this regard. You understand human needs well, and have a modern and enlightened ability to express yourself in this regard.

THE NINTH HOUSE . . . TRAVEL, RELIGION, PHILOSOPHY
The ninth house is the field of long range goals, planning and long distance travel. Matters of profound mental interest, including religion, philosophy and higher education are ninth house affairs. Also associated with the ninth are journeys to far off places and searches for new horizons, both physically and mentally.

Pisces
The Pisces influences on actions in ninth house often denotes an association with religion and suggests this will play a major role in your life. Neptune, the ruling planet of Pisces, is the altruistic planet. This planet placed here produces a philosophical attitude that's idealistic and visionary. Inspired insights help you solve many of life's major problems. You are unusually curious about the reasons for your existence on earth. You may never travel vast distances physically, but you do experience those adventures of the mind and the imagination.

Ninth house
The Moon in this ninth house giving you a very receptive and imaginative mind. You're a dreamer and a thinker, and many of your ideas provoke change to the status quo. Your beliefs are strong and sincere, but nonetheless, you frequently change your mind. You have a variety of interests and hobbies and you enjoy imparting the knowledge you have accumulated on these subjects to others. There is an innate purposefulness in this placement which makes you want to guide and direct those less enlightened than yourself.

THE TENTH HOUSE . . . CAREER, PRESTIGE, REPUTATION
The tenth house is the sector of worldly attainment. This field denotes just how you present yourself to the public at large and how you'll be remembered. It deals with the profession, offices held, and reputation. The house also relates to affairs of state or of other large scale operations.

Aries
The Aries influences on the cusp of the tenth house causes an innate tendency toward shyness to disappears when you get on the public stage, or even in public view. You are determined to make a name for yourself in whatever career you select. At a young age, you may jump into the wrong profession. This would be a reaction to some impulsive urge. Once you are finally established in the right place, you work hard at your profession because you feel you should be the best at what you do. Mars, as the ruler of Aries, is the ruling planet of tenth house matters. Mars is assertive, the planet of action, determination, drive and ambition. Your natural energy is directed to the career, and in this area of your life you are not afraid to compete and charge out ahead of the pack.

THE ELEVENTH HOUSE . . . FRIENDS, ASSOCIATIONS, IDEALS
The eleventh house is associated with the achievement toward goals and objectives. Often it is called the house of hopes and wishes. Humanitarian and philanthropic enterprises, clubs, groups, associations, and the sharing of ideals is emphasized here. People that help you, friends, connections and influence matters relate to this house.

Taurus
The Taurus influences on the eleventh house cusp suggest that objectives or goals in life are associated with the basic material issues of everyday living. Making money, accumulating a comfortable standard of living, and establishing a secure situation. You interest is not just money and possessions for the sake of wealth. Instead you want to gain a sense of security, and status to overcome a basic insecurity. You are attracted to artistic, stable and well-to-do friends, who may be called on to help you attain your goals. Your basic sentimental nature is very apparent in selecting friends. Friendships are very close and warm. Time spent with them is rewarding as you enjoy visits to art galleries, museums, theaters, or a variety of other pleasurable pursuits.

THE TWELFTH HOUSE . . . HIDDEN, SUBCONSCIOUS ISSUES
The twelfth house is the field of the subconscious mind, of problems stemming from unseen causes, and limitations. This area relates to behind the scene maneuvering, emotional problems, secrets, deceptions, and problem areas to overcome. This house gets away from the mainstream of life, and lets the soul step back and take a look at the world. On the mundane level, the twelfth is the house that takes individuals away from everyday life. Its associations include prisons, hospitals, and other institutions that would remove one from society.

Gemini
With Gemini ruling the twelfth house, you do your best thinking when you are alone. You can think of many clever ideas when alone with your thoughts. Yet it is so difficult to get them to come out when you are around people. The Gemini association with early family affairs suggests that some difficulties stem from relations with your family. Although you need roots and security, you will find it very difficult to live with or near your brothers, sisters or other close relatives. You may like to discuss your emotional problems while keeping your ideas and plans secret. You operate on instinctive urges and the subconscious mind, rather than from reason. You are impressionable, with the practical mind buried beneath subjective impulses.

Twelfth house
This placement denotes a private drive for self-perfection. You are one who will seldom receive full recognition for your efforts and accomplishments, but you easily accept roles of relative obscurity. You are somewhat introverted and love the peace and solitude such a situation often affords. If you were left to your own devices and permitted to, you could live a contemplative life. If you display leadership, it will likely be a "behind the scenes" role. Service to others provides you with recognition and fulfillment. Psychology and psychic research may be of considerable interest for you. While there may be indications in other parts of your chart that you need people, you are likely to feel somewhat estranged from others even when in the middle of a group. You need to spend a good deal of time by yourself. You should not be too concerned by feelings of not-belonging, and by failures to mix well with others. Your role may be that of investigation and obtaining understanding, rather than socializing and the attainment of status.

Twelfth House
Mercury resides in the twelfth house producing an association with the subconscious mind. This position suggests that your thinking is strongly colored by experiences and subconscious influences. Decisions are often based on feelings, rather than logic. You're secretive about your thoughts and ideas. You may often be shy and hesitate to speak your ideas, especially in a public setting. You are somewhat hampered by learning difficulties, and you may have difficulty attaining your potential because of this. You lack confidence, but hide this fact very well.

Twelfth House
The Mars twelfth house placement shows desires and actions are influenced by the subconscious mind. You have a compelling sense of mission, but most of your desires are kept secret to avoid open opposition from others. You are secretive about your work or you prefer working alone and perhaps even in seclusion. Unconscious anger needs to be brought into the open and understood.

Sun trine Moon
A trine formed between the Sun and the Moon shows a harmonious balance between your will and your learned habits and emotions. Your natural reactions to circumstances encourage success and the healthy growth of your ego and self-esteem. Early relations with parents were helpful and you were probably encouraged to express your individuality and become your own person. People respond to you freely and with ease. You are comfortable with responsibility because you are capable of getting others to follow you without becoming domineering and dogmatic. If a problem exists here, it's a lack of assertiveness caused by your not sensing the need to be firm.

Mercury sextile Venus
The sextile formed between Mercury and Venus shows grace and skill in your speech and writing. Often this aspect shows talent in a literary sense or in composing music. You know how to express your opinions with skill and color, and without being argumentative. You are refined in your presentations and you usually see to it that your position is well documented and tactfully delivered. Your personality is more easygoing than other factors in your horoscope may suggest.

Mercury trine Saturn
Mercury forms a favorable aspect to Saturn in your chart producing a practical, well disciplined nature. The reasoning power and retentive memory is very strong. You are able to solve problems easily because you use every fragment of information you possess. You are very exacting in calculations and craftsmanship. You view life seriously. You're a disciplinarian type who can succeed in any role where management skills can be employed. Your sense of self-containment is notable. You are not inclined toward flattery, so any compliment you give is earned.

Mercury opposed Neptune
The opposite positions of Mercury and Neptune show communication is marked with creativity and imagination, a vivid imagination that is not always dependable. Competition is an obstacle that poses a problem for you. You are at your best when you don't have to look back over your shoulder and worry about what your competitor is doing. You have a sensitivity to the thoughts and motivations of others. Your advancement may be impeded by a tendency to dream and scheme a little too much. Beware of a tendency to be deceived often following this placement.

Mercury opposed Mars
The opposition of Mercury and Mars shows an argumentative disposition causing conflict when you feel you have been treated unfairly. Sometimes you just take an opposing point of view for the sake of argument. Your personality has a much more critical and fault-finding tone. You can be a real stickler for accuracy in thought and word. Oddly enough, you sometimes overlook important details or fail completely to see and understand the other person's point of view. You have an ego identification with your ideas and you take personal affront to those who differ with your thoughts on any subject. To avoid becoming unpopular, you must control speaking with a sharp tongue and with any excesses in profanity. This placement gives a very active mind with limitless intellectual abilities. With it comes a restlessness and impatience to prove competence.

MARS trine SATURN
The trine formed between Mars and Saturn shows that you are a good soldier who always finishes assigned duties. Little of your efforts are ever wasted on unproductive activities or trivial matters. You are a good person to work with or for because you keep yourself under control always, and you are tolerant and helpful to others. You respect others for what they are and accept them at their level of development. You succeed because of the way you apply yourself. You illustrate that success is something to be earned and not just an accident of birth or good fortune.

MARS opposite NEPTUNE
The opposition of Mars and Neptune can make it hard for you to relate to others emotionally. You are susceptible to deceit and becoming involved in misdeals. You may be perfectly honest and above board in your activities. Still your motives and actions will be questioned and suspected. Be careful not to become involved in any activity that is the least bit shady. Learn to reason with your intellect and not be led by your fascination for thrills and the unknown. Avoid drugs, alcohol, and the occult. These are dangerous for you because you are so susceptible to them. You are easily mesmerized by illusions and those who create them. Avoid setting unrealistic goals.

MARS trine PLUTO
A trine between Mars and Pluto shows that the assertiveness in your nature is well aligned with your dedication to causes. You can be effective in solving problems in society because you have a deep understanding of those problems and their origins. Services are offered out of spiritual convictions. To you, romantic connections have deep meaning and interest. You display a caring nature that extends in several directions to transform those you contact, socially and emotionally.

The Bridge of Balance

I was walking on the road with three other people. Two girls and another guy. The man was a little older than me and he wore a cowboyish hat. We all carried rifles and pistols. We came to a bridge. It was called the bridge of balance. We crossed it. On the other side was a few buildings that were run down and looked almost abandoned. Most of them had weeds growing around them. There was one store open, it was called "My friends" there were a couple people moving around in the store but I didn't go in. Just past the few buildings was open dessert.

We went straight into the dessert, as it was getting dark. The sun soon set and we traveled further by moonlight. Finally we came across an area that had some sparse dead tree's. Slowly we approached one and the man nodded at me. It was my first time but I knew what to do. I crawled up close to the dead tree and found the whole under it's roots. I knocked the butt of my rifle against the tree in a rhythm. I heard something moving. A small ferocious creature leaped out at me. I grabbed it by the neck while it was still in the air, choking it. I put it on the ground and holding it with my knee I broke it's neck. The man smiled at me and told the women what I had done. He said the rhythmic beating was because "All creatures have a signature vibration. Learning what that vibration is allows you to affect them." We did this to several more trees until we had several dead creatures. Then we tied them up and headed home. The sun was rising as we headed back and one of the girls wanted to race me, so we ran back towards the bridge. From this side the bridge was named equality. When we passed the small pub called "My friends" she told me that they serve the best sandwich around. I told myself i'd go in and get a bite next time I was around there. Then we crossed the bridge and I went home.