I have an address in my hand. I'm walking down a street that leads to an alleyway. I turn down the alley and find a door. I open the door to find a very large man, he is naked with his arms crossed across his chest. He asks for my invitation. I hand him the piece of paper with the address on it. He looks at it and then moves to the side. I walk through the doorway and down a small dark hall. At the end of the hall is an open doorway with several men inside. As I walk in a couple of them look at me, and then resume standing about. We all wait together, i'm unsure what is going on. A bell chimes and I notice there are closet doors built into the wall (don't know if they were there before the chime or not) All the men in the room began to undress. Unsure I began to slowly take my shirt off but didn't really do much. One man saw me looking unsure and told me we had to change to get in. He then began to get into a two piece pajama suit. It was white wool with blue stripes running up and down it in verticle lines. Another bell chimed and door at the end of the room opened. Women began to enter slowly. They were topless, and shined from being oiled. The walked slowly and rubbed their breasts while looking into the mens eyes. the men began to dress into the pajama's faster. Slowly I walked backwards until I turned and left.
I walked down the alley confused and not sure where I had been. The place I was in look war torned. Buildings where crumbling down around me. Some were charred black. There was an ashy color snow on the ground. I walked a ways until I came to a large building that had lights on in it's window. I walked in to find a small reception area. I knew I had dreamt of this place before. But soon forgot I was dreaming once more. There was a hallway that lead to a door. I went to the door and entered a room through it.
The room was lit with red light. There was a fake wall running along the walls of the room. The fake wall was torn and broken and crumbling like the city outside. The wall was charred black in places. There was a spring bed with half a mattress on it, clothes strewn about the floor. In the corner a women knelt. Her clothes were torn and burnt. Her hair was shaggy and dirty. Her skin was covered in bruises and cuts. She had tears in her eyes. I realized that it was all makeup and fake. She lifted her skirt and began to rub herself. She asked if I wanted to purchase time with her, I thanked her but declined and moved across the room where another door was.
The next room was lighted with blue. There was a woman standing in the middle of the room with her back to me. She wore a white tank top that came down barely below her breasts. She had very small short underwear on. The room had several fitness equipment machines in it. She turned and looked at me and asked if I wanted to be with her. She layed down on a bench press table and pulled her shirt up over her breasts. I thanked her but declined and and exited on the other side of the room.
The next room was lighted with yellow. There was a tree in the room. It sat on a fake hill with turf on it. From the tree hung a swing. A woman sat on the swing with a loose dress on. She smiled brightly as i entered. She stopped swinging and leaned forward, exposing her breasts to me. she asked If I wanted to play with her. I thanked her but declined. She frowned and asked if I was sure. I again declined and exited the room on the other side.
The door led to a small hallway with two doors. On on the left side and one on the right side. The door to the right led to a small kitchen. The door on the left lead to a room colored in green. there was a woman laying on a couch sleeping. In front of her were multiple tv's and computers. I left her alone and went into the kitchen. I sat down at the table, confused and not sure why i was there. The woman from the red room and the blue room and the yellow room entered teh kitchen. They all began asking me why i had declined them. I said I didn't know. The red woman asked if I didn't find her attractive. I told her I found her very attractive, but I didn't wish to take advantage of them all, because I felt bad. The yellow girl said they wouldn't charge me. I again declined. the blue woman said they would all be with me together. I again declined. I offered to cook them something. They seemed surprised and suspicious. I heard a different girl say something. We all looked and a woman stood in the doorway to the kitchen. She was rubbing her eyes from being asleep in the green room. She had on small loose shorts and a t-shirt. She wore socks but no shoes. She said "I know exactly what he wants." She walked towards me and leaned her head against me chest. I hugged her instinctively. She turned in my arms and begain to grind her buttocks into my groin. I froze. The other women watched quietly like they were learning something. I told her to stop and she reached back and grabbed my waist, pulling herself tighter agains me. I closed my eyes and wrapped my hands on her hips, pulling her into me. Realizing what was happening I tried pushing her off me, though i didn't want to hurt her. she pushed back and leaned her upper body down so her head was just above the ground and her arms reached back grabbing my ankles. She grinded harder into my groin and my mind started to unfocus. I finally asked her nicely to stop. She said "I know you like this, i know this is what you want, why do you want me to stop." and i said "Because I need to give you something first. I need to cook you something. I want you, I want you all, but I need to cook for the person i'm with first. I'm ready to cook. When i'm done cooking I will be with you all."
She stopped and stepped back. The woman from the blue room stepped forward, and handed me a piece of paper. She said it was a recipe. That I should make this recipe and then one of them would come find me to be with me. I thanked her and left. They all waved goodbye.
This dream sounds to me like the first of the last temptations before transition or exaltation. i.e. The last temptations of Christ, the Buddha and many other stories throughout history. This is you "Lust temptation".
ReplyDeleteThe girls in the dream seem to represent the classic "ideal" girls for the typical male. Red=submissive, Blue=athletic, Yellow=playful. I believe the girl in the Green room to be someone you know.
When I looked up the meaning of cooking in dreams I found this: To dream that you are cooking, signifies your desire to influence others in such a way so that they will like you or become dependent on you. Alternatively, it represents your nurturing side or wanting to be nurtured. You want to be loved. Or the dream could mean that you need to express your creativity.
The way I see it, your need to cook for them signifies that you feel the act of sex needs to represent an act of love and not lust. By cooking for these women, you are able to show your love.
The thing I wonder is this: does the act of cooking for these women ACTUALLY prove love and thereby justify the sex act? Or is it just something to convince yourself it's ok to act on those manly desires?
For me, the end conclusion was that the recipe at the end was a way to combine love and sex. I think since a long time ago, in my mind I have separated the act of sex from love. I lust after women, when I think of sex it's not exclusive to someone I love. I can't remember a relationship I've had where I wasn't in the relationship just so I could have sex with the woman. I think that i've equated love with the ability to have sex. In my mind I need to love the person, so I can have sex with her. Not I want to have sex with her because I love her. I personally know why and when this thought process began intertwining itself into my mind.
ReplyDeleteThe recipe at the end was was instructions of how to do that. How to love first and desire second. Or rather how to truly combine the two.
The last temptation thing I think was dead on for the journey i've been on lately. Sex has been always, my biggest temptation. I am extremely sexual and it is something I have the hardest time resisting. In the dream it was easy for me to say no, even though the temptation was huge, until the last girl at the end. I do not know who she is but she did seem to know me in the dream.